Well let me start by saying..I do have a headache but I'm being a trooper for all of our beloved readers that have had to go without the last month. After much convincing by family, friends, and even my spouse that people are reading our blog and do care about our happenings, I am back again to give you the latest. I know I always promise to be back soon, but to be honest, when its the end of the day, I'm so shot...all I can manage is reading all of your blogs...not writing in my own. I find too that I want to blog but I feel like I have to have pics to add and I'm so lazy when it comes to downloading all of our pictures...it has been taking me a looooonnnnnggggg time. But, at last I'm here, just for you, the reader who is yearning to know what's going on in my or our heads.
Its weird, the more often I blogged, the more I had to say...but now that its been a while, I'm not sure where to start. We have been busy, of course, everybody's busy. We have our mundane routine of church, work, sleep, eat, etc...nothing crazy. Our kids are growing up so fast, we're just holding on for the ride now. We find ourselves exhausted every night and our first thought when we wake up is wondering when our next minute of sleep will be. Since my grandma's passing, the reality of how fragile life is, has really hit me. Everyone says don't let life pass you by, but I just don't know how not to. I feel like half the time I don't even know what day it is...let alone week and before I know it, another month has gone by. I've really been hit with the realization that these minutes, every minute, is something I want to seal in my memory. It makes me very sad to think that all of the memories I will ever have w/ my grandma or grandparents together have already happened...there will be no more. I don't want there to be a time when someone else I care about passes away and I think, why didn't I call them then or write more often or talk more. I know that's natural...its just so rough to think that life has ended, no matter how long it was. I really didn't mean for this blog to be sad or melancholy, I just find myself being very introspective tonite. Okay no more gloomy thoughts...I am trying to use these thoughts to push me to enjoy my life more, enjoy my time, and take advantage of all of the moments I have with the ones who mean the most to me.
Blah, blah, blah...now on to what you really care about. The kids are great. Ava is officially moving on 2 limbs instead of 4. She has been walking for a couple of weeks now, although its really only 3, 4, 5 or 6 steps unassisted. If she's holding on to something, she's pretty quick. Its going to be great to see her really go after Van...just wait till he gets all the payback coming his way. A little girl only likes to be laid on for so long before she's bound to take a stand, no pun intended. Van is amazing us more and more every day. He loves to read, do crafts, sing songs, and be independent at all moments of the day. He is still even tempered but has his crazy "almost" 3 days more often now. I know all parents feel this way, how much can I really love my kids...I mean really it just keeps overflowing. Mike and I were talking the other night and realized there will never be "enough" in terms of time with them. I can honestly say, there are just so many parts of their lives that we are looking forward to, things we want to be a part of or see, watch their faces as they experience first. I don't know that I will ever feel like I've seen enough, I'm good to go. Does that mean my faith as a christian isn't sufficient in what God has to offer me other than this world or does it mean that I love my kids just as God loved his son and would want me to, with passion, commitment, and unwavering devotion? Oh so many questions.
Okay well I'll wrap up this post with some new pics of the kids. Enjoy them, I do.
Well that's all for now. I will make a post-new years resolution to try and blog more for all of our friends and family, I will try to not be so lazy. Thanks to all for the countless minutes of checking and still being disappointed by an old title...here's to you!B
